A Dream I Can Call My Own

"God does not play dice with the universe. He plays an ineffable game of His own devising, which..."

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 11:02:57 -0500

“God does not play dice with the universe. He plays an ineffable game of His own devising, which might be compared, from the perspective of any of the other players [i.e. everybody], to being involved in an obscure and complex variant of poker in a pitch-dark room, with blank cards, for infinite stakes, with a Dealer who won’t tell you the rules, and who smiles all the time.”

- Crowley (an angel who did not fall so much as saunter vaguely downward) (via likepolishingfirewood)

[From one of my favorite novels, which happens to be a collaboration by two of my favorite authors.]

Al and I during The Princess and the Frog tonight. (Or, "Timmy, no!")

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 01:29:00 -0500

Me: Exactly how do you feed a pet alligator?
Al: Take it to a day care and look away.

And this is my evening. (Moo, Alvaro.)

Sat, 12 Dec 2009 22:07:17 -0500

And this is my evening. (Moo, Alvaro.)

So this is my Saturday morning. These could turn out awesomely...

Sat, 12 Dec 2009 11:01:58 -0500

So this is my Saturday morning. These could turn out awesomely or… Not as much. Fingers crossed!

Coco's Story [Please read!]

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 22:14:51 -0500

Coco's Story [Please read!]:

savethekitties:victoriastation:

This poor dear… Watching a pet suffer is one of the most painful experiences anyone can ever go through. If you can help, please consider it.

This will be my last Christmas in Jacksonville.

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 18:39:12 -0500

(At least for the foreseeable future. That’s not to say that I would never come back, or that I won’t visit my family for Christmas sometimes. But by this time next year I intend to be somewhere far, far away. Here’s to Boston.)

Can I just brag for a second?

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 15:05:56 -0500

See, I’ve never had the opportunity to take a class I really wanted to take just because it sounded interesting. My university really doesn’t offer many of those. It’s still too small a school, and it really doesn’t give students room to take courses for fun, whtether they want to or not. I am one of those nerds who really enjoys learning things just for kicks, so I have always despised my university for this. But this course… This course might make it up to me. Because I am about to graduate, and I had already registered for all the courses I needed, and I still wasn’t full time… I have decided I am going to take this course. I am going to take it, maybe as an auditing student, and I am going to revel in all the fangirly geekery. This spring, I am taking Religious Imagination and Science Fiction. This is the catalog description:

Science fiction authors and directors have imagined brave new worlds, creating alternative visions of the world, the social order, history. Imaginary utopias are populated by all manner of creatures, human and divine, natural and the supernatural spring forth from these stories and create new worlds and realms, offering reflections on the human condition, struggling for answers to the questions that drive us in this world. Apocalyptic fantasies abound in this genre, destroying old worlds, old gods, imperfect creations and replacing them with other possible worlds. This course will boldly go where no one was gone before, through a variety of texts, films and media, in order to discover the ways science fiction authors imagined religion, class, race, culture, economics, and history in this and other worlds. We will analyze contemporary science fiction novels, films, television shows, and short stories, looking at how authors construct their worlds, and reconstruct ours.

I am sort of hoping I meet a nice, attractive, geeky boy in this class. Surely that’s not an unreasonable expectation.

Please, God? For Christmas. Or my graduation present. Or even my birthday. Throw a girl a bone, won’t you?

thedailywhat: Muppets Thing of the Day: The Muppet Show’s three...

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 14:47:51 -0500

thedailywhat:

Muppets Thing of the Day: The Muppet Show’s three least intelligible characters perform a festive rendition of the Christmas classic, “Carol of the Bells.”

[via.]

Start with the fact that this video includes almost every one of my favorite Muppets ever. Add to that the fact that three of them are singing my favorite Christmas song ever. That equation does not quite add up to why this video is making me laugh so hard. Oh my god, I love it so.

Current report is nothing is broken.

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 23:44:47 -0500

The boy is just as snarky as ever. He is just fine. They’re going to do some X-rays before they let him go.

I had stopped crying til he called and bitched at me for being short with him. I wasn’t trying to be short with him… Not in the snappy way. I just didn’t want to say too much, because then I was going to burst into tears ago. You know, like I did as soon as I hung up.

I woke up today mad at him. I stayed home today, because I haven’t been feeling well, and I woke up to a text from him admitting that he had gone to see one of “my” movies without me. It’s a stupid thing to get mad over, but… I did get mad. I know he understands why I was upset, stupid or not. In my shoes, he’d have gotten upset, too, and we both know it.

But I woke up mad, and I told him to give me one good reason not to stop speaking to him for twenty-four hours. I more or less stopped replying after that, not because I was still upset but because I really didn’t have anything to say.

We didn’t talk for the rest of the day, until he called from an unknown number tonight to tell me he was in the hospital. When we hung up, I saw that I had a missed call from him an hour and a half before that. He tried to call right after it happened, it looks like.

He tried to call, and I didn’t answer.

What if he’d been hurt worse? And he thought that I wasn’t answering because I was still mad? What if that had been the last thing he had to go on from me?

He called, and I pride myself on always being there for him, and I wasn’t.

I am so mad at myself and so upset, and I don’t remember the last time I hated myself quite this much. And I keep thinking about how I was so right to be worried about him riding his bike home from the university. It’s not far, but we’re always there so late, and it gets so dark…

I know it’s stupid and useless to play the “what if” game, but I just can’t help it. I love that boy with every fiber of my heart. I shouldn’t have gotten mad this morning. I shouldn’t have acted like such a child about it. I should have answered his phone call tonight, and I should have been ready to go over there and help him.

I failed him tonight.

My other half just called from the hospital.

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 22:42:20 -0500

He was hit by a car while riding his bike home from the university tonight. Evidently, he is okay, just banged up, and they’re checking out his various limbs for injuries.

He is okay. Thank God.

So why can’t I stop crying?

Formspring me.

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 20:20:40 -0500

Formspring me.

slowgraffiti: I am sharing this picture not because I look good...

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 18:31:16 -0500

slowgraffiti:

I am sharing this picture not because I look good (the opposite, honestly) but because I honestly have fucking no idea when it was taken.

Oh honey. You were oh-so-gone.

Dear OkCupid Guy,

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 17:49:22 -0500

slowgraffiti:

This is not the way to pick me up:

So you don’t hate me do you just cuase my team stomped all over yours. I gotta say When Tebow was on the big screen at the game crying…the whole place just erupted. It was the best thing ever. I am never wrong.

Tell me this didn’t happen.

lickystickypickyme: I.can.not.get.enough.of.this. Have you met...

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 17:36:36 -0500

lickystickypickyme:

I.can.not.get.enough.of.this.

Have you met your Cthulhu today?

Snuggler Required.

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 17:36:14 -0500

yourbeloved:

ninefruits:

I am a snuggler. I need snuggles. Don’t come near me if you’re not one for snuggling. And what I really need is an active snuggler. Someone who just lays there for me to spoon them isn’t enough, I need you to nuzzle into my neck and chest. I need Eskimo kisses, goddamn it! I need to feel like you are actually fond of my company, not just someone who allows me to put my arm around them because it’s cold and you want the extra body heat. Seriously, if you are in my bed I am offering you my body to enjoy. You should be taking full advantage of that. There is immense pleasure to be had in tucking your face in underneath my chin. The skin on my upper-chest is smooth and supple, you should very much desire to caress it gently with your lips while I hold you tight and stroke your hair. This would be a wonderful experience for the both of us. I’m not asking you to do anything unpleasant. All I want is a mutual physical expression of our intimacy that goes beyond sexual intercourse. Is that too much to ask?

I loved this.

You and I both. Where does one find boys like this? Just wondering.

Dec 5 - Baking with Al (via baycee) Al tried to stop me from...

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 15:16:31 -0500

Dec 5 - Baking with Al (via baycee)

Al tried to stop me from photographing him (but failed, as evidenced by the other pictures in my flickr), but he wasn’t quite quick enough. I actually really like this picture. There’s movement in it, and, even better, you can see his grin despite his hand. (He’s smiling with his eyes! Somewhere, Tyra is so proud.)

Dec 5 - Baking with Al (via baycee) This weekend, Al came over,...

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 15:14:05 -0500

Dec 5 - Baking with Al (via baycee)

This weekend, Al came over, and we baked a Maria Cake. It’s basically a layer cake made of cookies and chocolate sauce. It turned out soooooo yum. Seriously, it’s delish.

Nov 15 - Football and Puppies at Jeanne’s (via...

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 15:12:20 -0500

Nov 15 - Football and Puppies at Jeanne’s (via baycee)

This is slowgraffiti’s other puppy, Monty, doing his best happycat impression.

Nov 15 - Football and Puppies at Jeanne’s (via baycee) One...

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 15:09:29 -0500

Nov 15 - Football and Puppies at Jeanne’s (via baycee)

One of the great things that’s come from this semester is that slowgraffiti and I have reunited. I love that girl to death, and I am so grateful to have her in my life.

This was on Sunday at her place. I went and watched the Jaguars game, and I took pictures of her puppies. This is Ripley again, asleep on Jeremy’s lap. And there’s Jeanne in the background, all absorbed in the game.

October - UNF (via baycee) I’ve been experimenting with...

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 15:01:14 -0500

October - UNF (via baycee)

I’ve been experimenting with light some lately, and this particular evening at UNF involved a really some gorgeous sunset lighting. The new sections of campus are actually fairly photogenic, and I’m pretty pleased with the way the pictures turned out.